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Today is a wierd day. I cried two times. I cannot tell you of what reason even though I really want too. I feel like crying again. I look up through the window and asked, what are tears for? People might answer, "Oh, because they're sad and they cry." That answer is not enough for me. I need a real answer and good one that shows why people cry. No scietific reasonings on how the eye and blah blah blah. Those reasonings are usless to me. I want to know how tears circle around life, how they cooperate with each other. I wonder how life even works now, why can't it be like friends and family live happily ever after like a fairy tale? Even though life can never be like that, I know. I really think that life does come with a bargain. It depends on if youa accept the bargain or not. The bargain is not always good, it is different for everyone. Some people have a bargain that contains a happy and loving family and friends that support you every step of your way, while some other people don't have such a great bargain. I feel like that I amvery lucky to have all of this around me. All this happiness surrounding me. But today I feel something different about sister. She has bigger resposibility than me. I never noticed until now how tired she is trying to keep this resposibility, while she does all the hard work I do nothing but keep asking her for more and more. I just realized that I am a lazy girl. Now I realized that my parents aren't liking my sister better, but helping her more becuase she is more tired than me. I just realized that my parents don't want me to be a shadow of my sister, but just to know her more so I can work along with her and share the heavy bundle with her so she won't be carrying this heavy responsibility forever until she one day falls asleep and never wake again...
I don't want that to happen. I have realized how tired she is how sad she is how trapped she is without any freedom. I just realized in all these years.... 12 years, it took me 12 years....

TVXQ fanz!~

Join atheopiea!!!
Websites to go to:
Soompi.com
DBSKer.blogspot.com
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I cant remember ani thing else....gahhhh I SHALL UPDATE :D

Saturday HW

so damn bored. There is nothing to do,but stare at the hw and dread it and puke >< I WANNA DIE. I mean seriously, the only thing I want for christmas now is a person who can do my hw and let me learn at the same time. But seriously the most hw I need help on is chinese, if there is anyone willing to help please contact: babii_virgo912@yahoo.com, and please no spamming, or chain letters, or you will be regretting it >:D

Boredness prevails

I am soooo bored, and so much hw help me world!!!! I AM BURIED IN HW!!

I AM GOIN TO PHILI!!

About 44 more days until I go to phili with mai friends. I am hoping to room with Kimmy, Sundy, and Vivian. I am really excited and worried. We will go shopping for Junkfood bfore the day of the trip I CANT WAIT!!!

Sallys blog!!

Go to sallys blog it is pretty good click http://random-fantics.blogspot.com

Am I a shadow?

I always wonder, am I only a shadow of my sister.... I always grow up with parents expecting me to be just like my sister. I always think that I need to be like her and live up to my parents' expectations. I feel like I am to be a twin of my sister, which I am not. I am never like her.. My parents always say that I am very lucky that I have a big sister to help me, while my sister grew up with no help, everyone tells me I am lucky, I admit that I do feel very lucky, but do I feel that now...? Everyone refers as "Amy's sister" I AM MARY. Can someone refer me to that someday? And is that day ever going to come? After going to Stuy I kind of feel that I am brushed aside and my sister is the big picture. My sister said this would not happen and my parents love us both equally, I do believe her. I just hope her words are right since she had more experience than me in life. I do love her no matter what and that would never change.

The economy

The Federal Governmment has lended the total of 85 billon dollars to savee the AIG in exchange AIG gives 79.99% stake to the government in the company. Do you think this will stable the economy and make it bloom and grow again? Or do you think this plan won't work and this is a waste of money? Do you think the depression will come?

This subject is not related to blog: THE ECONOMY IS FAILING DAMMIT!

The economy is falling rapidly, the economy is failing. Once it starts it is a domino effect going from state, National, then international until everything fails. I was thinking since the presidential election is going on now,how about if both Obama and McCain come together to first save the economy and then become president one of them..?? Won't that be a great idea, because a lot of things can happen in one month!!! there might be another depression if the economy is not saved, seriously, some people need to care about the economy so the world won't collapse!!!!!!!! Hoping that this message would be read, plz pass this on!!

The economy

I am asking everyone for thier opinion. Do you think the depression will happen again? As you know, history repeats itself and will the depression repeat? Please try to answwer this question :]

TVXQ obbsestion, Next year of class, summer skool!

I haven't updated for quite a while and juz to say wat has happened these couple of months. First is my new TVXQ obsession and sally's couple obsession. I now surf the net looking at their pics and all info about them and new songs. I search up funy. luving and cute this about them on youtube. Sally now goes around making couples. I have two couples, Kimry and sunry.

I am not going to be with my best friends nxt yr....sadly, but we will still be in intact. or......wat is dat other word...O.o uhm....watever we will be calling each other and visiting over the summer so or friendship wont uh...cant find word...like get less i forgot the word *thinks* I'm going to be in class 7S hope ppl i noe would b there too :]

Summer skool started today. I was kinda good...now i juz wonder who will be my assistant teacher..i derno who it is i juz noe i am going to get a thick book is lost i needa pay $600 and i hv a man teacher and a woman teacher...the man teacher is much more funy and nice but serious at the same time. Pizza for lunch every wednsday!! WOOT! I MISS MAI FWENDS!!!!! D:

It has been decided. There is plpayer in our class, and h is going to disappear from mai face

Whales

Gosh><><>< I need to draw a whale for a project. But what whale? A sperm? beluga? blue? killer? humpback? Some ppl want cartoon too!!! I am dying here!!!!

DSL....

OK.....very weird things had happened today...my sis sundeenly became obssesed with purple line, I might fget DSL which actually suks A LOT. My sis juz figured that the first noel is a good song. And I am suddenly luving mai blog sumhow...and by the way, JOLEE WAT IS UR BLOG NAME?! LUV IT HERE <3

Eh.....mayb he wun..mayb he will.........but he will sooner or later?

PPl think....who is this "he" wel....i am not gonna tell yoo juz keep guessing xDDDD juz keep guessing

He will disappear from the face of this earth.

No matter wat I do, he will disappear. No matter wat. No matter wat....even though he mite not until his 70's.....DAMN

he will pay =.=

He will pay for this. He will pay for wat he did. He will pay full price no matter wat. HE WILL PAY.

D.N. Angel

After watching somehing like D.N. Angel, my head and my imagination is streaming with ideas and stories ><

Classes O.O

Another Day....so freakin bored....i hv no one to talk too.........17 pages of chinese.....................swimming lessons...................violin lessons.........math......................reading.......................writing.........................5 days a week of school..............................enrichment.............SO MUCH CLASSES ><>

classical!ruliez

CLASSICAL MUSIC SOUNDS GOOD!!!! I may have violin lessons soon.........sighs....hope I'lll like em...:]

>.>

listening to sad songs is one of my things. It reminds me of these memories which i cherished the most. I dont know why, but I don't like jumpy songs it is just not me. I feel a distant from everybody, I dont feel that I am really happy.

brand new day but still at home><

I am still at home but is kinda free from homework, I am soooo happy!!!I can't wait for tomorrow......IMMA GONNA C MAI BFFs!!WOO HOOO I read a new chapter of VK today!!!! It just came out! read it here: www.onemanga.com/Vampire_Knight . It is soo good. O yea read millenium snow here even though there are only nine chapters.....: www.onemanga.com/Thousand_Year_of_Snow .

Another Day

Another Day at home. Not going out doing my homework, listening to my sister playing piano. She is playing this sad song. It's pretty calming too. I like it, hope I will always here this song when she plays the piano. I am almost finished with my homework, or I'll just get yelled again.

HW THIS HW DAT

Why are people yelling at me? A history day Project isnt just a little peice of board, nobody understands. They just think that now that I am in McAuliffe I can work fast and great. No it is not like that. Even though I got into McAullife doesn't mean that I changed. I am still me. I work slow but I try to speed up but I'm just not born that way. I am trying my best. But does my parents understand, NO! but it is not their fault, I am so happy now that i got this blog, i don't need to cram all my feelings inside me.

annoyed

Getting so annoyed. Homework here homework there, I think i am going to go crazy any minute!!!! ><

History Day Fair

History Day Fair project almost finished! so excited! goin to shop at Macy's on saturday! Hope mai BFFz are doin okay.........mayb not O.O i really hope they're catchin up. I JUZ LUV EM!